Remembering a mother

Despair is real in this life, and answers do not come easily. Yet in the midst of all these if we remember God’s glory, majesty, power, and love our despair can slowly subside. 

It's been a year since we lost our loving mother. I didnt notice it has been that long, it was like it was just yesterday. Not a day did I not think about her. All the things I do, every where I go, I think about her. And up to this time, I still I ask why. There are a lot things she should be seeing and experiecing right now. She should have been seeing my daughter growing up, I should have been listening to her mother-tips, but she's gone. But despite all these should-have-beens, I get to answer my own question. God has the perfect timing, not too late, not to early. She made me prepared before leaving. 

Although she is already gone in this world, she will forever remain in our hearts forever. 

2015

2015 it is! Thanks 2014 for all the memories. So many things happened last year. Good and bad.

I got married, lost my mother, left my work for 7 years, became a full time mother and so much more! 

I cried hard and laughed too. Life they call it. But as everyone else would like to do, I wanna start new this year, seriously. I want to just leave all the heartaches behind, forget and renew myself -- (well, you know about new years resolutions 😉). Several years ago, stopped making new year's resolutions, because I know, same thing as promises, they are always meant to be broken. But this year, I decided to create my list again, things I wanna do: 

1. Create a 2015 positive notebook, electronic or the old-school notebook, so I can write all the positive things that happens, just the pleasant things. This reminds me to just focus on the good things and forget the otherwise. 
2. Start a blog. I had always wanted to have one but I can't, can't, can't and don't know how to start. I had so much topics in mind but don't really know how to begin. The start of 2015, gave me the reason and a nice topic for me to start with. And I am not really good in writing that's another thing.
3. Organize things. Literally. I have tons of clutter I need to put into their proper places. From clothes to baby stuff to shoes to bags and to never ending bits of things. 
4. Start a small business. I am already doing buy and sell as of the moment. But this time I want it to take it a notch up. I want to have my own online shop and be a supplier. 

But my list doesn't really end from here. As of the meantime these are the things I wanna start.  One step at a time. Diet isn't part of the list anymore and I don't have any plans of jotting it down, because it always, always, always Fail! 😩

Happy New Year everyone!

My wish is not to have any problems, but for me to over come any problems that will come my way. 😜